Friday, February 12, 2010 10:11 AM
Sometimes when I scroll down my Facebook Homepage, and see the numerous Orientation pictures that my batch mates are going through, it did run through my mind many times: Should I have gone to a JC?
I could've gone into SA. My best friend's there, and many many other people whom I know are there. But then again, since kindergarten, every time I move on to her higher level, I'll always be alone cos I'll be the only one in the entire previous school going to the next school. Guess the same thing is gonna happen this time, haha. Well but it's true that we shouldn't be going somewhere because of friends..
I'm not the only Crescentian going Ngee Ann, but i think i'm quite sure i'm the only one taking my course. isn't it the same haha. with quite some free time around, i like to sit back and think back the times i spent in Crescent. surely it was full of ups and downs. surely it contained the lowest points of my life. surely i learnt many lessons.
i'm here to reveal the parts of my life that one could never have imagined. in the beginning of sec 3 i was having the best days of my life. i had the best clique of friends in class, and we had fun everyday. i looked forward to school everyday. then by mid-years my results started to get screwed up, along with my character. my health and stuff got screwed up too, and then things started turning in for the worst.
after the platoon took over the contingent, i was selected to be the Part B UDI. however, when senior spec course was near, my CO then decided to pull me out due to my various screw ups. that was a HUGE blow to me. Staff Sergeant was something i worked for since i was a Part A, and yeah people often say rank is just a piece of cloth, but if rank represents all the shit and hardwork you've gone through, it's definitely more than just a piece of cloth.
then my tortoise died at the same time. aiyee. so me being a screwed up person didn't know how to not let my emotions take over my studies and stuff. my clique of friends started to draw away from me, further by each day. there wasn't much talk and laughter anymore, so i decided to leave them. from then on i walked alone.
it was probably because of the add on of these screw ups that i screw up my final years too. then i made a vow that sec 4 was gonna be different. i didn't stay at home during the december holidays. i stayed in Singapore to study and went back during Christmas. i was hoping that when the new year starts my classmates would change their attitude towards me. oh wells, things didn't change, so i continued walking alone. i struggled in my studies and for the 1st common test the worst nightmare came. i got an L1R5 of 40. my highest grade for all subjects was a B4. ouch.
my mum knew nothing about this. until one day when my form teacher told me at 11am that my mum was coming at 12pm to see the Vice-Principal. at 12pm the GO called me down and i dragged my body to VP's office, ready to get executed. when i opened the door, i saw my mum and grandma crying in front of the VP, with my report card below them.
that period of time was hard to get through. i lost my friends, lost my grades, lost my family support. they became hopeless of me, and it definitely was a bad start to the new year. that was when i decided there was only one person i could depend on: Myself. slowly, i started to pick things up. i didn't call home for about a week to allow the tension in my house to die down. my CCA stopped at around April after i stepped down. my school decided to try out having mid-years after the June holidays for our batch of sec 4s. even though everyone complained of a destroyed June holiday, it was fruitful. my mid-years L1R5 dropped to 33 and i got an award from the principal during assembly because of that. and not forgetting my mid-year O level Chinese where i got an A1.
in term 3 after the mid-years i started to grow closer to 2 friends. we started becoming best friends and were always there was one another. so the 3 of us, plus Jasmine, Valerie, Lydia and some others who were from other classes. in class i didn't sit with the 2 of them but at least i was 5 steps away haha. we started working together for prelims and i managed to pull through again, with an L1R5 of 26. and i passed my A Math for the 1st time in 2 years of getting F9 :D
so the 3 of us, with those from the other classes, pulled through Os together. and we had a common favourite subject: history/SS. i guess i could never have made it through without them, seriously. esp that 2.
so i'm here to say, thank you GOH RUIQI & LI MING! :D
i must also thank my platoonmates and my cadets, Bravo'09. many times they helped me forget about the not-so-good stuffs when i'm with them. as for my class, 4G2, i don't blame you guys for your attitude towards me all these while cos i'm the one who kind of caused it myself. i didn't have a good graduation from sec 4 with you all, but i guess it's ok. wish you guys all the best in JC/Poly and see you all in our next gathering (;
i'm still having body aches all over ouch. will update about Camp STEEL soon!
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